Trips to the canyons.

I know that i said I would be on here everyday blogging about at least my scriptures, well i set unreal expectations for myself. Life is so busy I feel like all i do is keep running around in circles. i have not slept at my house in 6 days that is how crazy life has been but i am loving it and it is expected when the summer months start.

Life has been extremely hard these last couple weeks i have been missing my dad so much, I feel so lost and alone without him, I feel like so many things are happening in my life and time is passing so quickly and he is not here for me to share all the new exciting things with and all the lessons that are being learned.

A couple weeks as many of you know I was falling for someone really hard and that did not work out he turned out to be a damn Jerk!!! but hey what can i do it is all about learning and taking a lesson from it. I learned really quickly who my friends are, every single one of them stepped in and tried to do everything they could to make me smile! Kristy let me sleep on her couch for 2 nights cause even though I had a nice comfy bed at home i could not bring myself to going and laying in it and think about all the times that i was sitting there and talking to Cole. She let me cry on her shoulder and scream when I needed to. She is absolutely amazing. She is the definition of a best friend. Kristen and Jenny were there when Cole decided not to show up, they were there to make me laugh and smile. Misti was a phone call away and man did she let me vent and cry and she even sent him a not so nice message. Without these girls I really can say that i dont know what i would do. There are times that i feel so lost and alone in this world and they are right there to wrap their arms around me and tell me they love me and that everything will be ok. Without them I dont know what I would do. Through this all though I really started missing my dad, he was always there to be just that one phone call away he would listen, tell me he loved me, that i deserved better then him anyway, and how beautiful i was and that it would be ok. Never did he have one negative thing to say he was my protector and my guardian and man do i miss him! He is all i think about it feels like!


I took this picture the Night I was supposed to meet up with Cole and he didnt show.



Kristy and I spent a lot of time in the Canyon last week, my quiet place, and the place that just gave me time to be me. We made a trip to cascade springs, and can i say beautiful. Kristy and I have alot of good memories there, last time we were there was the summer of 2008, the twins and ellis were so little! Scarlette was still in the hospital and life was crazy but amazing. So when we were up there again we created more memories and smiled alot. After cascade springs we decided to go to Tibble Fork Reservior, that is until i realized where we were at, and had a great idea to keep driving to the lake that i was sure was up higher. i know at first Kristy thought I was crazy when she saw the dirt road and then when it seemed like it was going to continue forever. I thought she was going to reach over and strangle me, that is until she saw the AMAZING Lake. Silver Lake Flats. Then she was in love with everything. The view, the area, and all of us. We decided to get out and let the kids get in the water since they had been so good at Cascade Springs. That was fun, I was a chicken cause the water was cold and i just didnt think that i could do it. It was amazing watching how much Scarlette and Kyndall took to the water, Kayden and Ellis were like yeah right. We had a blast. It was a great day. We got home that night and decided that Friday we would go back up to the lake and have a picnic with the kids and that we did.... The picnic was good, scarlette was cranky and did not want to be there but the other kids loved it. After we got done eating we headed back up the mountain to the lake, praying that Kristy's car would not over heat which it didnt but it got darn close, I thought she was going to have a heart attach she was so worried. We finally go to the lake and decided to park on the side of the damn where there were not really any people. We walked down to the water and Scarlette and Kyndall did not hesitate to get in. Then i got a great idea, I was going to get in....... thats right you guessed it...... in all my cloths. I slowly started to walk in and realized just how cold the lake was and said screw it i cant slowly get in so i just dove in and I thought Kristy was going to die. Slowly the kids started getting in and slowly I started to warm up! :) I had an amazing time with Kristy and the kids at the lake and with them just in general. Without that family I strongly believe that my life would not be as complete as it is. Also during all our adventures i had may camera in had and of course was taking many pictures so that is what these all are.












School is going great this semester I am pulling a A- average in all my classes thank goodness, I finished one class a month early and it feels great to finally be doing it right and getting it done with!

Well I think was the longest blog around. Just wanted to let everyone now what was going on! Love you all

i will put pics up of all the adventures.

Mosiah 14:4

I told everyone that I was going to be using this blog for a place to post my favorite scripture from each days readings! I usually don't read my scriptures til right before bed but as i was sitting here I had an over whelming feeling that I needed to read them so I did just that!

I dont think I have ever had something stand out to me so much while reading the scriptures. Right now I am currently reading in Mosiah 14:4 "Surely he has borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows; yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God and afflicted."

"Surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows." All I can think about each time I read this is how upset and alone I have felt since the passing of my dad. Never did I stop to take a second to think that someone else is feeling my griefs and carrying my sorrows. I am not in this alone, my heavenly father and Jesus Christ love me and they dont want me to be sad and feel alone. Reading the scriptures today has been amazing I have taken so many messages out of just a few chapters.

Daddy I miss you

Daddy I Miss You!

I feel so lost and alone, vulnerable and unsafe,
Daddy I miss you!
No one there to guide me or tell me just like it is,
Daddy I miss you!
I reach for the phone to dial your number and your not there,
Daddy I miss you!
No on to call and tell every part of my pointless day to,
Daddy I miss you!

You were the one who brightened my day, made me feel like
the most important person in the world, And always let me know
you loved me. I made plenty of mistakes, crossed way to many lines
but when it was all over you were there to ask,
Is everything ok?

I cry many tears wishing you were here,
Daddy I miss you!
I wonder each day what you are doing now,
Daddy I miss you
Do you see me smile? Do you see me cry? Are you ashamed? Do you wonder why?
Daddy I miss you!

I often think about the things you will miss. Walking me down the isle
and giving me one final kiss. Who will my kids call grandpa? Who will
they run to now? Will I ever be ok? Will this pain that I feel ever go away.

It seems all wrong like the plan was skewed,
Daddy I miss you!
No one to kiss me good night or hold my hand why I cry
Daddy I miss you!
What lies ahead where do I go from here?
Daddy I miss you!

Please watch over me, and know of my love. I understand now your an angel
above the best one at that guiding me along. O how I miss you and long
to be with you! Daddy I miss you

I love you so much dad you are all I think about
I hope your having fun up there getting everything done you need to.

Dedicated to: Dennis Sidney Weekes
December 19, 1961 – March 1, 2010

the beginning to the end

this is a paper i had to write for school i hope everyone enjoys it.

The beginning to the end!

By: Ashley Weekes

As I sit here and stare at the many surroundings that I have placed myself in I quickly learn of all the many faces of you. “Crunch,” taking each footstep as gently as possible to the left or to the right. When the loud noise of crunch is made right under you or far off in the distance. There are many great and marvelous things that are all around me. I reach as high as I can but my grasp will never be long enough to reach your beautiful leaves or long branches. I touch you and get a sliver or a simple drop of sap. I fall into you and scratch myself. Wondering how something so stationary can do so many different things. Needles and leaves short and tall. Everywhere I look I see a tree with many stories to tell. They whisper and wine with the wind always showing their presence. They hide me from the outside world, allow me to go into a trance.

Never did I think that coming here would bring me warmth and the feeling of sunshine no matter how hot or cold it was. The sun leans down and kisses my cheek while the wind is turning it to a nice cold crisp. The splish splash sound hitting the water bank brings a whole new calm and peaceful feeling to everyone that is here! It twists and turns hits the rocks at many different speeds letting us know of its presence. We all see the water as something different. I love to compare it to life; our life. Ever river starts somewhere to goes and goes some peoples rivers come to an end faster then others, but no matter where their river ends it is always ends at something bigger and better whether it be a pond, lake, sea, or ocean. We see many spectacular sites along the river, a deer sipping its water, a child playing, or a fish swimming. It beings happiness and smiles.

I stare up, down, and to the side in every direction I can think of and see many fantastic things. I hear the bird whispering the sweet sound of tomorrow, the stories of today, and the memories of yesterday. So happy and free, watching with such content but keeping their distance. Glancing all around I see it, the twinkle they glisten and they glow. The lights of life we may never know. I try to count them 1,2... they disappear before I get to 3. Some are small and some are big. They stumble and they fall we reach to catch them hoping against all to make one final wish. Laying my head down to hear the heartbeat of the world around me I feel the soft comfort below me. Bushy and warm shades of green, yellow, and brown I run my fingers through the blanket of the world. Some places it is taller and others non existant showing of a new beginning.

We all come here and wonder why, contimplate, and start to cry. Here I know that the world around me is listening. Opening it heart to all I have to say and everything that I am going through. There is a togetherness a sense of peace and serenity. I look around and see a new world, words, flowers, an ending to a beginning. The last impression is the words December 19, 1961- March 1,2010,

A new place a world unknown and out of my reach. An adventure a sense of a different approach. Gone gone to a new place, a lake, pond, sea, or ocean I do not know for my river is still slowly flowing. Not many people would have felt the things I feel when I am here! They forget to notice the whisper of the wind, feel the grass beneath their feet, or the smell of the beginning spring or the cold bitter winter. Calmness and peace is what I feel when I am here. The grave in which you lay is the place I feel closest to you. Where I can think, and talk and know that you are listening. Tomorrow it will all start over again, the whisper of the wind the crunching beneath my feet and the kiss of the sun.

I have been saying that I was going to create a blog to let everyone know what is going on in my life, as if my facebook doesn't do that already. But I also wanted somewhere I can share my writings, things and feeling about my dad. I have been missing him alot lately and when I miss him I grab a pen and paper and write things down. I want to be able to share that with everyone around me. It has been 3 months since he passed and I miss him more and more as each day goes on. Everyone keeps telling me it is going to get easier and I want it to but I dont know if it ever really well and that scares me. He is what I think about day in and day out! I also am going to use this blog to share my favorite scripture of the day from the pages I read and explain why I like it and how i am applying it to my life. New things in life you may ask? well I am finally back to doing school and so very excited about it. I am just doing 3 classes this semester trying to ease myself back into it. That is going really well, it is nothing new but i am loving school just as i always have. The end of May I finished my national phlebotomy class and certified in that, so now i can draw peoples blood if I want. This has been amazing because I now have something to fall back on if I ever need to. I have truly been blessed to have so many great things take place in my life. Well this is all for now! I love you all thank you